I woke up this morning... ehh afternoon* and did my usual routine: Wake up, check every social media site, make a bowl of Fruit Loops while I check social media once again.
One of my favorite youtuber/bloggers is Abby Smith (twist me pretty) and she had just shared a link to her new blog post. After reading her post, I was very inspired to just start typing. So here I go, I don't really have a plan of what to say but I'm just going to go for it.
2016 was a roller coaster year for me. 2016 started off to be probably the best year that I have had in a very long time. At the end of 2015, my family was dealing with so much sickness and death that we all felt emotionally drained. Before this, I had never lost someone so close to me and in the span of EXACTLY 3 months to the day, I lost two of the most important people in my life. One was to cancer and the other was of a broken heart. Even though this time was rough, I have never seen my family so close. We were so heart broken and lost that the only thing that kept us together was each other. Around this same time, I had no idea that I was meeting someone that would mean so much to me. Someone who cared for me, loved me, and encouraged me. If I had not met this someone, I probably would have not been able to handle everything as well as I did.
Honestly, 2016 was great. I learned so much about myself, the Lord, and others. I felt like this was my year, my year to grow. The Lord had placed someone in my life that helped me learn all these things and I am so thankful for that. I had grown so much more as a person in those months and even more these past 3 months.
Life has been pretty, lets say different. My life has done a complete 360 in three months. With school, work, family, friends, and a significant other. I was ALWAYS busy and stressed to the point that I had anxiety about it. I felt like there was not enough hours in the day to get everything done that I needed to. I felt like I was awful at dividing up my time... let's just admit it, I was the worst.
Now, my life is a full 360 than it was, let's say, 5 months ago.
Let me start off by saying, I feel like college is an awkward time for some. For someone like me, I have never been a partier or liked that kind of atmosphere. I would much rather sit and home with friends and play games or watch a movie. So it has been hard for me to find my place in college. I didn't join a sorority or get involved on campus and that has played a big role in my life now.
Okay back to what I was saying...While I have been (and still am) on Christmas Break, I feel like I have learned a lot. My daily life has consisted of sleeping 10+ hours at night, waking up around 10 or 11, laying around the house until I leave for work at 2:30, work until 6, come back home and repeat. I have been pretty bored. I feel like right now in my life, I am just restless. I am wanting something more. I am wanting some kind of change but I don't know what it is. I am SICK of being home all the time. So for this new year, I told myself I am going to get more involved. I want to go out and meet new people.
I am in the process right now of finding a church home and a new church family to plug myself into.
My point in telling you all of this is to ask, why are we always striving for more? We are always wanting something we don't have. I know all of us have scrolled through social media and wished that we had something from someone else's life. But we don't need to do that... we need to LOVE the life we have now. Every one is at a different stage in life and we are all on our own life path. We need to stop wishing we had someone else's life when we should be focused on our own. LOVE THE LIFE YOU HAVE. Enjoy every minute that you have in this stage of life because later on in life, you will wish that you enjoyed the stage you are in now. God is ALWAYS doing something in your life. We just have to seek Him and listen to Him.
Now I'm not saying it's bad to want more from your life or to set goals for yourself. I just think that we also need to enjoy where we are when we are striving for our goals!
Love the Lord and love the life He has given you ❤️
I hope you have had a great start to the new year, thank you so much for reading my post
-Steph
